Empty

I close my eyes and still
         can see you.
      you are so beautiful.
                     magnetic.
I thought there could be something.
         but I was a fool.
the clown in some                  awful comedy
there is so much inside my head whirling
like a drain                 insane
         deranged
and still I can see          you.
                             why?
I                                    god,
Feel                                    oh,
Nothing                                    god,
Anymore.                                    why?
                     I am empty now.
it’s as though ice has frozen me
         ice has                  burned me.
                     and still I see                  you.
every time I close my                  eyes.
         and I hear your
                             laugh.
                     and your voice
         the voice of an                  angel
         but everything was for nothing.
                     I was wrong.
                          I was bewitched.
         not my self.
                 I sit, so tired, so weak
                   and your eyes have been
burned into my mind,
         so intense, like a blue fire
                   and then there is the steam of
                   my heart
         melting
but now its gone,
                   over,
no longer able to be
                   melted, I am ice
I am
         cold
                   dark
                   alone
                                   empty


-kmt
©2008